Time after time…..


This past Sunday Speed informed me that Goofy will be showing up. Goofy is kinda like a “helper”, he helps Speed work on various projects around the shop and ranch. He also helps him drive long distances, which is the biggest help of all. Unfortunately there is a price to pay when Goofy visits. A while back we decided to set him up in the motor home so as to not to disturb us (me) at the house. I won’t bother to get into why, that’s a whole other story. When he got here Speed told him to just not show up to the house in the morning unannounced. Either he can wait for Speed to walk down to the shop, or call before he comes up here. Monday was no problem, Mitch and I woke up fairly early and Speed called Goofy and told him he could come up to the house. That lasted for a day. This morning after Speed and I got dressed, I was sitting in the living room with Coco getting ready to watch the new TV show Revolution that I recorded last night (love that show!), when all of a sudden Coco started growling. I had assumed that she was growling at Goofy, and I was right. He came walking up to the door, I’m sure he could hear Coco before he even got close, and then he just stood at the door looking in. The door is wood with a big rectangle section with cuts of beveled glass, some frosted, some not, with a glass star in the center. So now he turned into really creepy Goofy by just standing there looking through the door. From where he was standing he couldn’t see me. Meanwhile Coco is going off the chain barking at him! I eventually open the front door to let him know that Speed is in the back. He finishes his cigarette outback while Speed comes in and asks if he called, which he didn’t, and that just frustrates him, because it’s yet another thing that Goofy has a hard time understanding. Just like taking his wallet with him when we go to eat.

A short time after all this we decide to go to Weikel’s bakery, so I can get some chocolate cream cheese kolaches, since Cleo ate all six the other day and I didn’t even get to smell them! While we’re on the way to the bakery we pass by Riverside Cafe, which was recently voted as the “Best Breakfast” in Fayette County by The Fayette County Record readers. Once I mention this, Speed says we ought to try it out, and I said let’s go! They make their own bread and that was good! However they need to cook the bacon a bit longer. So when the bill comes, it’s $25 and some change, and Speed only has $17, I left my purse at the house, and Goofy didn’t bring his wallet. Speed then says to Goofy that he tends to make a habit of it. We go to the cashier and offer her $15, Speed’s driver’s license, and a promise to come back with the rest of the money. When he goes back into town, he picks up a few things, and he gets me three chocolate cream cheese kolaches! I have one after lunch before Cleo has the chance to steal and eat them again!

I then begin to work on the application for the Pre-K position. I look online to where the jobs are located and see the post and been to apply for it. It looked vaguely familiar, but I ignore that and keep continuing. Can I just say applying online is a pain in the ass!?! It’s just annoying filling out references and finding information. I already gave them official transcripts with my sub app so I didn’t feel the need to to upload them. And how would I upload official transcripts? They wouldn’t be official then! And I personally worry about anyone who gets hired on transcripts that were uploaded. People can fake those! (I did one semester, but again, that’s a another story.) So I complete it, and start to freak out about clicking submit. I ask Speed if he’s ready for this, and of course he’s all for me making money! I finally click submit, and instantly feel the need to have a drink! Then my friend calls and tells me that she already filled out my reference, she let them know that I beat kids, smoke crack, and to watch me on my breaks because that’s when I like to do my drugs! That at least lightened my mood!

I then begin to remember why the posting online looked so familiar, I had seen it a few months ago when I was toying with the idea of teaching again and looking to see what was available. But I think I remember deliberately passing it up, because I didn’t want to start teaching again! Oi! How do I get myself in these situations! I apply for something I originally decided not to apply for! I’m such a goober! It’s amazing what having no money, no job, and no one wanting to buy your car can do to you! A few months ago I thought all I needed to do was sell my car and pick up a few sub jobs here and there, and I’d be OK, but now here I am applying for a job a few months ago I didn’t even want! I think I’m mostly scared of not getting any more free time. When I was working I longed for free time. Time to get projects done, time to go on vacation, time to see family and friends whenever I wanted to. But when I had the time, I thought, “oh, I got plenty of time to do that!” My only problem with that was that I never got any of those things done! As soon as I ran out of money I didn’t have the gas to visit friends and family whenever I wanted, and if I didn’t have the money for gas then I certainly didn’t have it for vacations! The only thing that I’ve been able to get done are the projects, since mostly are relatively cheap. A main problem that I have that I want to fix is my procrastinating/non-goal achieving. Sometimes I come up with great ideas that I want to do, but then I talk myself out of them, thinking they’re “stupid”, or that no one would want to listen, or read, or buy. This is why I need some guidance!!

This is why I’m still leaving it in God’s hands, if He wants me to work there, then I guess I’ll work there.

In the mean time, I think I’ll start sipping on a glass of Beringer White Merlot!!


2 responses »

  1. Aren’t you really, really crafty or did I imagine that? You now live in the part of Texas that has a festival every damn weekend! Those festivals have craft booths. You might not rake in the dough but you just might be happy doing something you enjoy. You may have missed the best time of the season this year but think about next year.

    • No, you didn’t imagine that, I’m pretty crafty. That’s exactly what I’ve been thinking about doing! I was going to use sub money to get more materials and getting some things made and see what happens. I just figured that I should at least try something to make some money.

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